I’ve felt pretty down today, so I wanted to talk about the importance of self care. I guess it’s a bit of mental fatigue. Whilst it’s not been the most challenging week we’ve ever had. The pressure of filling out the DLA form right, has probably made it more mentally tough than I realised.
Self care is important. “How can you look after your kids to the best of your ability. If you are not looking after yourself?” That was said to me last year. It really struck a chord. Which I now know was the intention. As I wasn’t listening to anything else. My depression. That I had been managing quite well for a couple of years. Had seriously got out of control.
I felt like I was letting everyone down. But most of all my kids. Who relied on me so much. I was signed off work. The family unit was falling apart. I couldn’t cope with everything that was happening. I was needed at home. That was my priority, and thankfully my doctor and my work both agreed.
We have made a lot of progress since then. Jack and Lily are both doing much better. But depression doesn’t just go away. It’s a work in progress. When you put so much time and effort into your kids. It is easy to forget about yourself. Before Christmas it felt like a week never went by. Without a meeting or appointment for one of Jack or Lily.
I’m using this as a way to get the thoughts in my head out. But I know I also need to find time for myself. To do the things that make me happy. If you are a couple it’s even harder to find time together. But you carry on and do the best you can. When you do get the opportunities. Try and make the most of them.
At this point of writing. Lily hurt her arm whilst playing. Her crying set Jack off, and today it was worse. I had a feeling this was coming. Which could explain my general mood today. Natalie managed to calm him down. Now I feel like just going to bed, but my football team are playing tonight. So I will watch the game. It’s 50/50 whether that will cheer me up though.